Oh, yeah, this was fairly recent - I went through a lot of personal growth during Idol last season and I decided it was important to let people know exactly how I feel about them (I still think that's important, but it's more of an "in the moment" thing now). It was one of those things where we had "kind of" reconnected a few years earlier, but the extent of it was looking him up on Instagram and following him, and he followed me back. But aside from liking some of each other's posts, we didn't really interact, so I said, "I'm going to reach out and let him know how I feel!" but, again, it was almost more about hearing from someone else what a difference I made in their life, not about letting him know what a difference he made in my life, so it definitely stung when I didn't hear what I wanted to hear.
But at the same time, I did say what I wanted to say and I hope that he appreciated what he meant to me, and I hope he appreciated hearing from someone what a difference he made. I still hope that one day, someone from my past comes up to me and says that I made some sort of positive difference in their life, because I'd like to know (I think we all would) that we are capable of touching someone in that way. But I'm not going searching for it anymore, because it doesn't really work that way. :)
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Date: 2021-02-10 05:15 pm (UTC)But at the same time, I did say what I wanted to say and I hope that he appreciated what he meant to me, and I hope he appreciated hearing from someone what a difference he made. I still hope that one day, someone from my past comes up to me and says that I made some sort of positive difference in their life, because I'd like to know (I think we all would) that we are capable of touching someone in that way. But I'm not going searching for it anymore, because it doesn't really work that way. :)