5a. Open Topic

[gunwithoutmusic]

let's not call it “giving up”
maybe “moratorium” is better
i’ve never been one
to call myself a quitter

(but i’ve never been one
to call myself lots of things)

i spoke to you often
about the power of a word
about finding just the right fit
about agonizing over it

(not that you understood
but i understood that)

it seems so final
not just a drop of the ball
but an intentional release
a saying, “i was never
enough,”

(and a thinking about
the truth behind it)

let's neither call it “giving up”
nor embrace the finality of the words
let's give it another Name

Comments

[banana_galaxy]

Ouch. I feel this one really deeply. I hope this isn't something you're experiencing right now. A moratorium might feel better than giving up in the moment, but I've been in a state of limbo, and it's just as painful, if not more so, than actually ending something.

[gunwithoutmusic]

Oh man, I know that - thankfully this isn't about anything going on currently, but I was living with someone for nearly a year while feeling that way so I definitely know how much worse that can be than just accepting defeat.